I recently deleted my Sabrina Sativa tumblr, but salvaged a few writings documenting my experience with Mary Jane. At this present moment, I am not medicating as the universe has shown me now is not the time for such engagement. I have seen life from a different vantage point, and believe I have received what I need to from cannabis thus far. Though, using cannabis seems to be a cyclical thing.
About a week ago, I felt as if I was in the state of being high without cannabis. It felt like the real deal, and considering I used to medicate very often daily, it was so strange yet a revelation.
I don’t need cannabis to be high. All you need is love.
And since that day when I experienced this phenomena, I haven’t been medicating. I don’t feel like I need it, and I feel good about that. There has been a desire to get back to a harmonious balanced mental, physical, and emotional state without anything extraneous from exercise, good nutrition, and proper sleep, the fundamental foundations of health.
And love is definitely part of that picture too. It is necessary to open yourself up to love, and spread love, to feel love. I know at times this can be difficult if life seems to not be going so well,…there are many things out there that disturb the inner peace, contributing to the frenetic-ism we see in society.
It is a serious challenge to confront and be aware of those energies, and not numb your mind to them, but to embrace it and navigate the world according to your higher self & moral code. Actions do make a difference as it reflects our collective consciousness which shapes our world.
This is about my relationship with cannabis. It is true, it brings out a different side to my character. It has helped me understand more of who I am and has made me more aware of my consciousness.
Since I moved to the bay, I haven’t been medicating 6 times a day like I used to. LOL. But I will be the first to admit, I am still a pothead. I will always advocate it, even though I don’t regularly use it. I came to a point in my life where I don’t need or want it as much, but at this moment, I am convinced that it will be a part of my life for a long long time.
I’d like to think I have adopted the mind frame and certain character traits of being high in my “normal” day to day life. In comparison to before, I have a more positive outlook on life, am more patient, and don’t get riled up on bullshit. I am stronger in my positive nature when negativity shows up. In ways, the 3 year journey of being constantly and intensely high has been a transformational experience cultivating the focus and drive I have now.
“Sabrina Sativa” is a name I coined because of my involvement in the cannabis industry. I was a budtender, worked for an edibles company, co- founded a vegan cupcake edible company, and was pretty integrated in a 420 friendly network when in LA.
I was known as the girl with weed, anything and everything related to it. LOL.
My life has definitely gone in a new direction, but I still love that og kush. It really enhances my creativity and the right side of my brain. It is the reason why I started my health and fitness website www.activelifeaddicts.com, the inspiration behind wanting to learn Traditional Chinese Medicine, the driving force to spread light and positivity to others. Furthermore, it has helped me be me, feel free to be me, and find happiness in who I am. Even in my fitness journey, profession, and performance, it has enhanced my creativity.
So I have a strong tie with cannabis. I see it as a gift that can unlock a side of our brains tapping into our potential.
I just had a gnarley joint; shared it with two of my roomates. Super smooth with layers of goodness-Master Kush, XXX Og bubble hash, Blue Dream kief, then dipped in Bliss Og hash oil. Finally, it was wrapped in a thin clear plastic coating and tipped with a grape flavored filter. My roommate claimed we were smoking Jesus.
Creativity flared as well as awareness of the effects smoking have on our thoughts, that things can change very quickly as our perception of the world alters. For me this holds true, as cannabis stirs the creative and imagination of what could be.
It heightens the senses and for me the possibilities of perception flow. So, at times, it can lead to a seemingly paranoid state, yet I believe its not cannabis doing this, but it’s showing me, making me aware that it was already there. For example, caring about how we are perceived and how we are around other people can heighten this sense of “omg, what do they think, or is the situation like this, are they getting me at my level…”
And at the same time, cannabis is what helps me relate to others on another level. I become more relaxed, more me at times, more chill, more creative, more vocal, more at peace.
The Death Rocket, a perfect play on words, as you become alive on another plane of existence.
The first time I really resonated with Yoga was when I was high, which enabled me to reach a deep meditative state. Every breath had purpose that I could feel in my body. My face was relaxed and I was able to sink into a rhythmic dance. Yoga can be seen in a way as a controlled dance that reinforces postural alignment and brings awareness to every muscle in your body, even the ones deep down in the most unpredictable areas.
I wasn’t struggling as much as I used to. My bones were firmly rooted to the ground, and my focus unwavering. It was the most therapeutic and healing exercise experience I ever had. That is what I love about yoga: It’s an incredible workout that is spiritually, mentally, and physically cathartic and healing in nature if in the meditative state.
I believe smoking cannabis prior to yoga enhances the experience as the body relaxing effect helps alleviate anxiety which allows for deeper breath. With a full breath, we are able to breath deeply into every area of our body, allowing energy to move throughout all the way to the fingertips and toes.
It’s been routine for me to smoke cannabis before Yoga. I typically go with a Sativa Hybrid as I want to be relaxed but still alert and functional. My practice has definitely evolved; I’ve been practicing for a few years on and off. I don’t believe I understood the spiritual element of Yoga until recently, how it makes you connected to mother earth and holistic healing. I love how it intertwines, cannabis is used for medicinal healing and so is yoga. Together, it’s a wonderful gift in my life that should be explored.
It’s one of those Indica strains that not only relieves tension and anxiety, it is incredibly cerebral. It helps me put thoughts together, making complete sense of why such thoughts float around. It’s a vehicle to a deeper understanding. Perhaps that definition can be applied to all strains. I find this one to be particularly stimulating in a very beneficial way.
I believe we hold the answers to our own questions, and this strain taps into deep understanding. It makes me think of the future, my true aspirations, my past, and specific incidents, accentuating perhaps the sort of unsettled business I have with each.
This strain is like a mental cleansing, acknowledgement of these thoughts will dissipate into calmness and the present becomes the most important moment as the past is already done and the future is a concept.
I am learning to confront those shadows, and remove them. I’m ready to evolve, and this strain has helped me piece things together and make sense of my journey thus far. Change is part of the process, acceptance of the process, and knowing its healing properties, makes life amazing.
I guess I should say this strain is also very creative and inspiring, as it has compelled me. It was my top pick at the shop today, first thing I pushed out. Simply beautiful flower, sticky, somewhat dense, crystals, hypnotic aroma, etc,.. I was fortunate to try it before we put it out, and when I got to work today, half was already gone. I’m not surprised as it is truly spectacular.
It’s interesting to note that the effects of this high is indicative of its title. Reflective of prominent thoughts, yet aids in helping unlock the mystery behind those thoughts. Makes me wonder where this flower comes from.
I’m currently on a physical detox, and with this strain, somewhat of a mental detox, leading to mental clarity.